Anyway, last night I was surfing the web, and somehow came across someone’s blog that was comparing different products used for a colon cleanse. Yup. All that gunk and junk that’s built up inside your intestines and colon… yuck. And, as reported by the author and several other people, after the cleanse, they experienced a lot more health, energy, and vitality. Makes sense. If there’s crap in there blocking your body from absorbing all the nutrients out of your food, of course you won’t have the same level of energy or vital health.

I have to do more research before I recommend or discourage anyone from doing this. Better yet, do your own homework. lol. But it got me thinking…

I wonder if other things in my life are “clogged up” too?

You see, lately I’ve been having trouble connecting with God, hearing him as easily or clearly as I used to, or using any of my other God-given spiritual gifts and abilities. My intuition, for example, used to always be dead-on 100% accurate — even on things I’d have no way of knowing about. I used to be able to sense the presence of angels more easily. Read or “scan” people … see what’s going on inside them emotionally, so I can know how to better reach, relate, and help them.

Now, sometimes it works. Only sometimes. Other times, it’s completely off … and I’ve unfortunately had to become skeptical of all supernatural experiences. Am I really hearing God? Is my intuition really telling me that? Am I really sensing this about someone?

Sometimes yes, sometimes no.

How can I tell the difference? How will I know when I’m actually talking to God, and when I’m just hearing my own head talking back at me? I used to be able to tell the difference. But now … sometimes I think I’m right, only to later find out I was wrong.

Hmm.

What’s going on?

And why have I felt so disconnected and off-track since moving back to California this last time? It’s like my divine compass directed me to come here … and then once I got here, stopped working or shut off!

aarrrghh!!!

So I asked God for help.

Help me reconnect. Help me sense accurately. Help me hear him clearly, consistently, again.

I’m getting better. I’m much better now than I was 6 months ago — and significantly better than I was 6 months before that! But … why do I still seem stuck?

As I learn to love myself, things in this area (and many others) improve. I start to reconnect better with myself, with others, with God. I give myself permission to open up and listen, hear, see, touch, and sense the supernatural. It’s all helped.

But my accuracy is still off. My ability still weak. Why?

I think God may have given me an answer.

It was only earlier that day, or the day before, that I asked God for help on this. At the moment I prayed, I didn’t feel I could trust any “voice” I thought I heard speaking back to me. God remained silent. I had to trust in faith that God could hear me, even if I couldn’t hear him.

Then I stumbled across this blog about colon cleansing. And something clicked.

My heart feels cluttered.

What if… suppose my soul was like a spiritual body. Meaning, I have my physical body, the thing that you can see, touch, hear, smell… Inside I believe I have a soul. But what exactly is that? An orb of light or energy? A general, abstract, non-defined consciousness? Something else? All of the above? lol. What if my “soul” had its equivalent of a “body”?

My physical body takes in food, converts it to energy, and carries on the normal processes of life. Suppose my soul did a similar thing — it takes in some kind of energy, converts it to fuel or power, and lives its spiritual life.

Have I lost anyone yet? I’m not sure I’m completely understanding what I’m saying.

But hear me out.

Let’s say God — or love energy, or something like that — is the food, water, and air for the soul. If we go a long time without being with God, or connecting to that energy, we start to go a little “hungry.” Our souls aren’t as lively or passionate or healthy as they could be, as they used to be.

And suppose there was clutter in the way too. Suppose you took in some of that love energy, but there was so much blockage in your system, that very little of it was absorbed or transferred throughout your spiritual self.

Could it be that I’m having trouble sensing, or connecting with or hearing God, because I’m not spending as much time with God as I used to? Could it be also because a lot of “crap” has gotten cluttered up throughout my system too?

If you could look at my heart right now with spiritually-sensitive eyes, you’d see a lot of things. You’d see a lot of love and hope and joy. That’s the real me. But you’d also see a lot of what used to be me, or what I’ve been through but doesn’t belong to me.

You’d see fear. Feelings of rejection, belittlement, and abandonment. You’d see the pain and memories of broken dreams and failed attempts … leading to dismay, loss of hope, and loss of faith. You might see some old grudges that I haven’t quite fully let go of. You’d see some old wounds that haven’t completely healed because I still haven’t completely forgiven someone I need to.

You’d see very real emotionally-strong memories of struggling to survive, only to then end up in a job that killed my soul, day after day.

You’d see fears that I’m getting old, still a virgin, and wondering if I’ll ever find the right girl, or if I’ve waited all this time in vain.

You’d see some anger from all the times I felt lied to, cheated, or manipulated — even when it was by good-intentioned people who didn’t realize they were spreading a lie to begin with.

You’d see frustration and disappointment, mostly from myself at myself, for not being where I thought I should be at this time and place in my life.

Lots of things.

All “energies” — things that are all spiritual in nature and origin, or at least, have a spiritual component and effect on our spiritual selves — that are residing in, cluttering up and clogging up my own heart.

My heart…. my energy source, the place where God and unconditional love is supposed to reside. My heart… the place where I always turned, to be able to hear God. My heart… the very spot I seemed to always sense spiritual things with.

I think my heart’s gotten cluttered from a lot of varied, and often tough or painful, life experiences that I’ve gone through over the past several years. It’s blocked. And it needs a cleansing.

A cleaning out.

A flushing out.

A fresh start to a new beginning, better health, more energy, and greater vitality.

I don’t think we should blame ourselves for getting cluttered up. I think that happens naturally in time, by having a human experience. We’re going to get hurt. We’re going to have failed dreams. We’re going to experience anger, sadness, and a whole list of other “negative” emotions and experiences from time to time.

I say “negative” in quotes because no emotions are really negative. Emotions are feedback. They communicate to us what kind of experience we’re going through. They give feedback on whether or not we made the right choice. They guide us out of harmful situations and relationships — and into good ones.

Emotions are just an additional sense. We have the sense of touch to know if something is hot or cold. You don’t judge or ignore the feeling of pain because you’re touching a hot stove. You say “ouch” and pull your hand back. That’s the purpose of the feedback. Pain = stop doing that! Pain = what you’re doing right now is not good for you!

If we look at a blinding light, or hear a loud deafening noise… our physical senses give us feedback that we’re in a harmful environment, and we need to look away, cover our ears, or otherwise protect ourselves.

Same goes with emotions. You see, our 5 physical senses can tell us about our immediate environment, but they can’t really tell us anything about the meaning, purpose, or direction of that environment. They can’t tell us if something is psychologically or spiritually healthy or harmful to us. They can’t tell us if it’s safe to trust or better to run… That’s why we have emotions. They let us know what kind of situation we’re in, regardless of what it looks or sounds or smells like. :)

So don’t judge emotions. And don’t reject, ignore, or downplay them. They have a purpose. They have a point.

If you feel anger, it’s feedback that you’ve been cheated or hurt or taken advantage of somehow. If you feel loneliness, it’s feedback that you need to spend more quality time connecting and being with others. If you feel depression, it means you’re off-course or out of touch with your true self and purpose.

Listen to your emotions, good and bad, and appreciate the feedback and guidance they provide.

But when it comes to spiritual matters, don’t let emotions clog up.

Maybe I wasn’t ready or able to handle some of those emotions before. Maybe I never took the time to really feel them or understand them. Maybe I repressed and denied them for so long and forget about them. Maybe other reasons too. The reason doesn’t matter so much. What matters is that if I want to clean out my heart and get that love-energy flowing again, I need to let each of those emotions speak to me.

“I’m scared because I’m afraid I’ll never be loved for who I really am.”

Okay. I can understand how and why you feel that. Please know that no matter what, no matter what, I will always love you. I love you.

“I’m angry because I felt cheated and lied to. I suffered because of their lies!”

I understand. It’s not fair. We were wronged. But now we know better, now we’re free and empowered, and now we can live the life we’ve dreamed of. Those lies no longer hold us bound. The truth has set us free. I forgive them for lying… they obviously have worse issues than we do. ;) Now maybe we can help free others who are cheated by the same lies…

“I feel incomplete, incompetent, not good enough. I feel I don’t have what it takes to get what I really want in life.”

I understand how you feel. I can see why you feel that way. We’ve tried and failed many times. Gave our best. And it still wasn’t enough. But today we’re stronger, today we’re more powerful, today we’re wiser. We might’ve failed last time, but it’s not over, there’s still another chance to succeed. Look at all the great successes in life. All the millionaires and billionaires, all the leaders and great geniuses… how many times did they fail before succeeding? In fact, all greats — no matter what they become great in — became great because they kept trying, even after they failed. I can be great too. I believe in you. I know we’re going to be great, because look at how many times we’ve tried and tried again, even though we keep failing. I already have the traits of a great. That’s why I believe in you.

…

My list is much longer than that. That’s just a sample to show you what I mean. Identify, feel, let out each emotion. Acknowledge it. Respect it. Appreciate it.

And then move through it with love.

Emotions are meant to be experienced — not held onto. It’s amazing how quickly they will fade and pass, once we just feel them.

Stronger, more intense, more important emotions may last longer. They need to be felt longer. But other ones… may be gone a heartbeat after they’ve said their peace.

For some reason I’ve tried holding onto, resisting, or ignoring certain emotions. And now they’re clogging up and cluttering up my heart. They’re all backed up inside my heart.

I’m going to spend some quiet time alone, to let them be heard, to acknowledge them, to receive the important message they’re giving me. And then I’m going to move through them and lovingly release them.

You can’t let go of an emotion until it’s given you its important feedback.

So I’m going to do that.

Already I can feel some movement inside my heart, some small bits of the clutter rearranging and being released. Perhaps one emotion I denied was just the time and permission to really feel my emotions. lol. See how easy this is? :)

And I think, I suspect, that once my heart is cleared, I won’t have all that interference getting in the way between me and God. I won’t have all that clutter making it difficult to spiritually sense things, reliably follow my intuition, and stuff like that.

I think. We’ll see. There could be other, or additional, reasons. But either way, this is something I want and need to do … for me.

So I can be happier, healthier, more vibrant and alive — in my heart and soul.

For me.

Because I love me.

I love you, David.

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Peace, namaste, blessings,

David Michaels

blog.spiritualsmarts.com

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